I've been a critical care nurse for one year, and I've learned this: I'm not invincible.
Lately I have found myself driving more carefully, and getting fearful I might end up in a car accident. I wasn't sure why... since I've never been scared of this before and I never get anxious or have panic attacks. I've never even been in a car accident. So why all of a sudden was I having these feelings?
Then one day it clicked. I'm dealing with death on almost a daily basis, something I've never had to do before. I think when you're young ... you feel invincible. And not like 'I can jump off a bridge' invincible, the 'I'm healthy and I'll be alive in 10 months' invincible. Although occasionally when I'm driving I do have these moments of awareness - I wouldn't say I suffer from these thoughts regularly (thankfully). It has just opened my eyes a little bit, to change the way I think about my life and my future.
I don't know what the future holds, so I want to live today with a little more love and a little more positivity. My challenge, for each day in December is these 3 seemingly simple things:
- Find something beautiful in one thing that could be easily overlooked. (Because it's so cliche it works)
- Catch someone doing something kind or nice. (To hopefully restore my faith in humanity)
- Think of one thing I did (or will do) to make the world a little bit better. (Since I should probably do something other than just think of stuff right?)
Maybe...I'll post my findings at the end of this month?
Hope you enjoy,